This is what I was/am feeling due to certain events in my life. Even though this poem reflects what I am feeling at this moment, is dedicated to a friend of mine who lost her father recently in the sincere hope and wish that she will be happy once again and a prayer to him that he will watch over her wherever he is...
The poem represents me no one else but she also is in pain hence the dedication.
I wake up and the loneliness stings
filled with dread at fear's first kiss
I drown in the flood that loneliness brings
but realise that there is no one to miss
No one to share
the blood of my heart with
Nor feel sorrow or joy
as there is none to part with
My days are empty and hollow
nights just seem to follow
one image after another a copy, a shadow
of what was my life was when I truly was living
I put on a mask, a handsome one
as this pain must not be shown
the stonier the better
isn't that a mark of how much you've grown ?
apathy to fellows and indifference to friends
too long this has been, too late to make amends
evading my responsibility to the best of my talent
is all I am reduced to, hence this pathetic lament
My mind says "forget this and move ahead
what do you have to prove ?"
Some people might heed this piece of sane advice
But my heart will not let go and there is no asking twice...
the world is broken
or maybe it is me
there is no colour left
or is it just that I can't see ?
I stare in horror at a world gone wrong
I try to remember the words to MY song
that one reference, the point to begin
my sojourn here, the birth, the origin
No childhood wonder, no surprise or joy
the end of innocence, broken like an old toy
I am just numb to all the madness and violence
I stand quiet, but am screaming in silence
9 months ago