A twinkle in your eye, your secret smile just for me
The exhilaration I feel, a moment of bliss
My heart was dancing, but I wished to dance with you
My skin on fire, the moment of our stolen first kiss
I remember all that I said, on MY shoulder you had cried
I could not understand, but it does not mean I have not tried
I gave you everything I had, but it was probably not enough
Leaving you was the hardest thing, please know I am not so tough
I see the anger and the hatred in you
but can't you see I hate it too ?
I never thought you'd lie to me
I never thought you'd make me see
how easy it is to be a slave to myself
how long would it take till I forgave myself
was that all a dream never to be real ?
was I lying, when I told you how I feel ?
These questions haunted me, ate me alive
I lost myself, drove myself away to survive
you buried your hurt under a mask of a smile
or maybe you found love in the arms of another
I though was left to rot
and the guilt is all that I care to remember
9 months ago